“Each person is like an actor who wants to run the show; he is forever trying to arrange the lights, the ballet, the scenery and the rest of the players in his own way. If his arrangements would only stay put .if only people would do as he wished, the show would be great. Everybody including himself would be pleased.” How it works – pg.60 Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous
This is very much the alcoholics’ life. He is always trying to manage and control every area of his life so he can have a sense that things are manageable. Our lives become so chaotic that we begin grasping for any sense of stability .often times we also go through the blaming phase. If only so and so would do this or if that person would just be a little more understanding then maybe we could all be happy. We deflect responsibility for ourselves and others welfare by putting it off on other people we blame other people for our unhappiness shortcomings. We have high expectations that are often times impossible to meet. We become restless, irritable, and discontent. As a result selfish thoughts and behaviors run our lives. This can carry on into our sobriety until we take responsibility. Once we admit we are powerless and our lives are unmanageable we can begin to recognize our parts in things and be free of past wounds and harms. We can recognize we have a problem and begin to heal .if this rings true for you or you or a loved one are at the point where you are ready to get help then there are several solutions available such as drug rehab blogs, an affordable rehab, AA, and 30 day rehab programs along with many other sources. May you find the help you are looking for and may this be the first day of the rest of your life!